I’m senstive and it sucks!
June 11, 2008Now that this whole process is over and done with for now, I’m feeling like I’m ready to get back on track with all my friends. Trouble is, it’s a little daunting. It’s like emerging from a pit and suddenly saying “Here I am – what’s new?” when everyone else is a way past that point. They’ve been living their lives since I dissapeared. And I’m sensitive about it – meaning that I’m kinda feeling a little bit like a lump on a log – do I have a place now that everyone has moved on?
I think I’ve been feeling blue on this bit for a while – mostly because a lot of transition has happened over the last year and a bit. I went from single girl with a broken heart to girl in love, to engaged girl, to married lady, to school work nazi, and then back to life. It’s a lot to process, and it’s hard to see where you fit in anymore, especially when your good friends are transitioning too. I’m terrible at staying in touch, but I’m still wanting to be a good friend. Yikes.
Anyway. I’m sensitive about this whole thing – I’ve felt a little bit like I’ve failed my friends by not being around, and so I’ve been second guessing myself as to whether or not I was worth being friends with at all. And that’s a BAD way of thinking. I dunno. Maybe the dramaqueen just needs to chill out and leave the drama out of it.
Baby steps.
Insanity! Pure insanity! When you showed up at Danielle’s birthday party, it was your second party of the night, and we both really appreciated that you guys stopped by to say hi. That’s just one example. To be honest, I was surprised to read in here how swamped you’ve been because we’ve seen you out and about a few times and you were always brining the party with you.
Fear not, just because you feel like you’ve been left behind, nothing could be further from the truth. Especially given that summer is just kicking off and everyone is looking for an excuse to BBQ, patio, cottage, go camping or just chill out with friends. Your social calendar will quickly fill up, and if not, just pop by our place and the four of us can drink wine on our deck.